Monday, September 8, 2008

Why is that mothering is never simple?

I've tried so many things to try and get Jelly Bean to be a little more obedient, and a lot less violent, and nothing ever seems to work. Sometimes, I'll hit on something that will work for a week or two, and I'll think that I've found the answer, and then WHAM! it will be back to the way it was or worse. I've really been trying to be patient with her, and give her some extra loving for being the dreaded middle child, and just being matter-of-fact about choices and consequences. And yet, I found myself last night, at the very end of my rope with her after a long night of her acting up. I yelled too much at her and I know that it didn't accomplish anything. It won't improve her behavior, and it just left me feeling bad.

She was the child that was so hard for me to conceive, and so hard to keep her inside until it was safe. She was so wanted. I need to remember that more often when she does things that seem to have no purpose but to annoy Flower or Super or Me.

I love you Jelly Bean. Please help me see how to help you.

3 comments:

AFarCryFromNormal said...

Jelly Bean is LUCKY to have you!! Isn't true though. It seems like the very hardest births for me have given me hard kids but in the end it is well worth it. I wouldn't trade them in................most days! LOL We all have moments like these. You know I share some of the same feelings about my dear K Rap (that is his nickname for himself! LOL)

Stacey said...

I think I was just reading about my middle child! I love him so much but I just don't understand some things. I guess only perfect parents have perfect children and needless to say...I am a long way from that.

Mary Smith said...

Okay, make me cry on a Wednesday morning! I like to creep into their bedrooms and whisper that I love them and that I am sorry -- after they're asleep and cannot talk back!